Friday, April 4, 2008

A million things that you and I can do

"There is hope! Finally, hope!
And no, this isn't over
No, we aren't through!
No, there's still a million things that you and I can do!"
(Lyrics from the Broadway musical Parade)

Just after we took flight this afternoon to leave the Houston area, I pulled out my iPod Shuffle. The first song was "This Is Not Over Yet," from the Parade soundtrack. Steve and I saw the musical about seven years ago, when I was pregnant with Cooper. We both love the story and the music.

The main character sings the song when he learns that he has a reprieve from the death sentence for a crime he didn't commit. He and his wife are celebrating their extended time together.

I found special meaning in the song after our visit at M.D. Anderson today. The news was about as good as we could get.

The MRI scans show that the tumor is about the same size as in January. It didn't grow! And there is necrosis -- a cluster of dead cells -- in the middle of the tumor. Water has filled in that spot. (New brain cells won't grow there.) Dr. C says there's no way to know if it was the radiation therapy or chemotherapy or both that punched the hole through the tumor. In addition, there is less edema (swelling) around the tumor now as compared to January.

Dr. C was optimistic about the treatment so far and has recommended some additional tools to fight the Damm Spot. Dr. C's plan is designed to keep the tumor at its current size -- making it smaller would be an added bonus. (But don't let that stop you from praying that the tumor will altogether disappear!)

Chemotherapy
Next week Steve will again start taking Temodar, the oral chemotherapy. His dose will be twice as strong as his first round. He'll take it each night for seven days, then take seven days off. That cycle will continue for 12-18 months. With that, he'll continue to take Zofran to fight nausea, an anti-pneumonia drug and an anti-malaria drug, which may help deter cancer cell growth because of its antimutagenic properties.

Accutane
Steve will also start taking a high dose of Accutane, usually prescribed for acne. Accutane in high doses somehow turns off and on whole sets of genes in tumor cells and makes those cells behave more normally. It can be effective in working against cancer stem cells, which are resistant to chemotherapy and radiation, taking away their leadership qualities or "stemness," as Dr. C says.

We learned the possible risks of Accutane, including extremely dry skin, lips and mouth; pancreas and liver problems; increased triglycerides; and depression. Steve will need to moisturize from head to toe every day and stay covered in the sun. (If you suffer from dry skin and have a recommendation of a lotion or moisturizer that works for you, please let us know!) He'll also have his blood checked monthly for internal changes.

Diamox
Steve has been taking acetaminophen almost nonstop since November to address the headache at the back of his head. Dr. C suggested he try Diamox, which can reduce the production of spinal column fluid and may reduce some of the pressure he feels on the back of his head. If it works, Steve may be able to give the Tylenol a rest for a while.

Provigil
This drug is prescribed for patients with narcolepsy or sleep apnea. It could also help Steve fight the fatigue that he's been struggling with. This is an off-label use that insurance companies aren't willing to finance; the drug costs $360 for a month's supply. A 2006 study showed that it dramatically improved quality of life for brain cancer patients. We don't have high hopes that our insurance will cover an off-label use for quality of life purposes.

In addition to blood work and an MRI, Steve discussed with Dr. C and his nurse his current symptoms, including:
Double vision
His right eye doesn't function as it should, so he has double vision to the right and straight ahead. Dr. C is not hopeful that this will ever repair.

Left-side weakness
As Steve is again backing off the Decadron (down to 2 mg daily), he's noticing some left-side weakness again. It would be best if he's off the Decadron altogether, but he may need to stay on a low dose to retain functionality.

Taste changes
Sweets no longer taste good. This is probably because of the chemotherapy and/or radiation. I think it's his body's way of reminding him to avoid sugar -- tumors love sugar.

Swallowing
Steve still has no gag reflex, which keeps him at an increased risk of aspiration. He must continue to thicken liquids for safety.

We'll meet with Steve's neuro-oncologist in Dallas this week to review the M.D. Anderson plan and establish routines for checking blood counts and other vital signs. (Dr. M here frequently works with Dr. C there via phone and e-mail.) The next MRI will be in about eight weeks.

As we were landing in Addison this afternoon, at the end of a smooth flight, another special song started on my iPod. It was our first-dance song at our wedding, almost 14 years ago. (We will both tell you it's much too long to be a first-dance song!) It makes us both weepy and happy at that same time. It makes us want to dance in the kitchen or family room or wherever we are when we hear it. I shared my headphones with Steve, and we held hands until it was time to leave the plane.

"Was there life before this love
Was there love before this girl I can see
Was there ever love for her before me"
...
You can count on me to stand and say
'Was there ever life before this wonderful day?' "
(from Pete Townshend's "Was There Life")

10 comments:

MELISSA TARUN said...

Oh happy, happy day! I am so glad for Steve that the tumor has not grown! Sorry I didn't have a chance to call you to check in while you were in Houston, but you have been in my thoughts for the past 2 days. Steve, you are the bravest of the brave.

Melissa

Anonymous said...

Tara and Steve, What good news! Tara, thank you for taking us into your lives so fully with your narrative. I am lifting you all to God hour by hour.

Anonymous said...

I had issues with dry skin.. body butter is really good... any kind as long as there is no alcohol in it or it's very low in the ingredient chain. My personal favorite is an olive oil body butter you can find at body works and sometimes in a pack at costco. Dove and oil of olay body washes help as well.

Anonymous said...

I'm so glad to hear that the tumor hasn't grown! I can offer a couple of suggestions about dry skin care. My daughter uses Eucerin cream in the tub - super thick!! (not the pump lotion bottle) to help with extremely dry skin. It also helps to protect sensitive skin. Vaseline is the best trick for dry lips! I'm using Gold Bond Ultimate healing with Aloe to help with some stubborn dry spots, as well.

Hope this helps with Steve's dry skin!

Anonymous said...

Hi Steve,
I am so glad that there was good news! I certainly hoped that would be the case. I do have a recommendation for moisturizers. The first is Triple Lanolin, you can get a large pump bottle at Sally's beauty supply for like $3.99. Because it has lanolin, it is thick and the effects don't go away soon.
The other would be Gold Bond lotion, available at most drug stores, but quite a bit more expensive.
It is a little lighter with glycerin and aloe vera being main ingredients.
Hope this helps and I will still keep expecting a miracle. God has not gone out of the miracle business!
God bless, and hope to see you soon.
Cherl Hoskins

Chitnis and Chahal said...

Can't tell you how relieved I am to hear the latest news. Sorry I didn't get a chance to call last sunday. Have been a little under the weather myself and trying to get back to normal self again.
Read the blog tonight, what a relief. Hoping that all of the tumor turns into water and no more cancer cells. Will pray for that day.
Am going to India next week but will definitely call before I go.
Hang in there, hopefully more good news to come.
Shilpa

Cyndi said...

Be careful with the acetaminophen with the high doses of Accutane. The acetaminophen also has effects on the liver...

Wonderful news about the tumor. We will continue to pray for complete disappearance of it.

Cyndi and Brian Dermody

Anonymous said...

Accutane can also make the inside of your nose extremely dry. Sounds weird, but a little Neosporin inside the nose is a tremendous help. And stock up on Carmex for those dry lips! Best of luck!

Anonymous said...

There is such wonderful news in your latest posting!
I know a good body moisturizer, recommended by my dermatologist: Theraplex Clear Lotion by Sirius Laboratories. It's a bit difficult to find. I order it online.
The best thing I've found for hands is Gardener's Hand Therapy by Crabtree & Evelyn.
You moisturize -- we'll pray. Hang in there!
Love, Linda Swift

Anonymous said...

HI Guys,
I'm so glad for the news! And like Steve said a couple of weeks ago, "It's not so bad to see two beautiful Tyras."
We love you both,
Lorrie

lanolin is great for lips, nose and other delicate areas - it is usually on the baby row in tubes