Our neighbor two doors down passed away Sunday. Eddie was 42. He was diagnosed earlier this year with cancer.
He and Jenni were foster parents to Labradors. He was a top-notch runner. He was always smiling.
Steve is having a rough week.
He had a slight fever last night, which resolved quickly with Tylenol. He's developed a rattly, raspy cough and has chest pain when he coughs or breathes in.
We are changing one of the two antibiotics he's been taking. And he'll start taking a cough medicine to help as needed.
He's having severe bladder spasm pain that isn't alleviated by the bladder spasm medicine, so he's taking pain medicine more often. You know Steve is in serious pain if he asks for something stronger than Tylenol.
One of the hospice nurses who was here this week speculates that his kidneys just aren't functioning well. That's why there's sediment in his urine -- the kidneys aren't able to filter waste as well as they used to.
He has very little hearing remaining in his left ear. He can still hear with his right ear, but if you talk to him, it's best to have eye contact and speak a little loudly.
Our Steve is still in that declining body.
Last night, friend, neighbor and nurse extraordinaire Tisa came over to listen to Steve's lungs and offer some advice. She commented on how much knowledge Steve and I now have about medical issues.
In his halting, labored voice he said, "That and $4.50 will buy me a latte."
Sen. Edward Kennedy passed away last night. He, too, had an incurable brain tumor.
This article talks about quality of life in brain tumor patients as well as the role of Avastin and Temodar in extending life.
When Cooper learned of Eddie's death, he and I had a long, quiet talk.
"Eddie had cancer, and he died. Daddy has cancer, and I'm afraid he's going to D-I-E," he said.
With all my courage and a huge lump in my throat, I pulled him closer and told him: "Cooper, we can't fix Daddy's cancer. He is going to die. I don't know when. Only God knows."
Cooper told me that he would be miserable and cry every day for the rest of his life without Daddy.
We held each other and cried together.